A bunch of sweet mistakes in life

I have come to this earth.
A mistake!
To experience hard childhood and poverty.
The joy of the happy family was curtained just after the trailer,
And left to suffer the bliss of broken family at the right time of life.
The more I knew about others, the more mixed feelings I endured.
The more I opened my eyes, the more hardships I saw.
Experienced the life of homeless at the unwelcome place in the early life.

I went to school.
A mistake!
Perpetual tears on my little eyes and headache for mama for tuition fees and clothing.
Failure in exam, and swelling hands for being the constant companion of teachers’ cane.
Gifted shame and tears to mama for the sacrifice of her hard-earned money before others.

I had determined to become a good student.
A mistake!
Brought a moment of happiness to my parents for regaining the lost hopes.
A part for the pursuit of reputation and setting big goal in life,
And poverty was given the backstage.
Soon, many sleepless nights and tears in hostel,
And many nights without dinner at home followed.


I had grown up and fallen in love.
A mistake!
A moment of caring for none and ruling the world.
Got inspirations and enjoyed overflows of water for the desert river.
A companion to give strength for the hungry night, and smile for tears.
I never realized one day I had to pay a heavy price of my poverty.
Her hundred promises and my immortal love died suddenly in one betrayal.
Trust for love dried up somewhere in the valley of disgusts and betrayals.

I got a job.
A welcoming mistake!
There were no more nights that passed away without dinner.
A long era of window shopping had gone by.
Where there was enough food and rest at one side,
Stress and dissatisfaction of work stabbed me all the time.
When I touched the stars, the heart cried for the moon.

I was falling in love again.
A mistake!
The long drought was lover.
The lost faith redeemed again and the cuts of betrayals healed.
The happiness and trust that lost five years back were back.
But the joy did not last for long.
When you thought you can’t live without somebody, she would be taken away for sure.
When I was lonely, an eternal loneliness prevailed,
With perfect serenity and zero interference from anybody.
When I found my savior, another savior appeared.
Both equally strong, and my heart was floating in between.
Each day, when my heart slowly submerged to the nearer,
Equal amount of pain and tears was shedding for the distant one.
The more I got closer to the other,
My heart was resting more for the departed.
Cutting the heart into two equal pieces, and mourned for the unseen every moment.

I got married.
A mistake!
I was an actor, a masquerader playing different roles.
Playing a faithful husband for the faithful wife at one scene,
And a heartbroken, melancholic lover at the other part.
Smiled during the day with tearful eyes followed in the night.
Everything was bright and beautiful until dark.
Unfaithful mind was taking shelter behind the curtain of smiling face.
Paying every moment the price for marrying somebody while loving someone else.

I am dying.
A big mistake!
He has already written new plots and the actor is dying.
Plots will not be wasted; another actor will be chosen.
Living in separation from the heart without any reflection of gloom was the most difficult role.
I want to be a legend of this play, and won’t like handover the bastion to someone.
No one should play this role any further.
But the script has written and the old actor is dying.
Someone has to be chosen to succeed me.